the current concern #1

[semiswete]

 What up nerds, I'm semi and I don't know what I'm going to use this for yet. But introductions are for later! I've got something on my mind, so let's talk about that!

 

 I want to write. I WANT to write. I miss it restlessly--like waiting in line for some event, inching closer and KNOWING that you'll get inside eventually but not going fast enough, which on some irrational level offends you. I miss the creativity, the way innocuous events like vacuuming can be reframed in your mind. It could become more than cleaning! What if someone vacuumed almost obsessively, as though that act alone would erase the memory of someone, the scent of them from their thin living room carpet? (Actually, I may have read something similar once) I miss seeing the world like that, because I've always been a sentimental type who's halfway in a daydream anyway. Part of me even misses the disconnect in how I think I'd write, and the overly flowery style I usually end up with.

 

I have two fics partially written that I will likely never finish, and a snapshot of a scene that never had a fic to go around it; which is all too bad because these are pairs I quite like. Maybe I'll post them here, kind of release them into the ether once and for all? I don't know. The problem is that I'm not really in a fic-writing cycle, but the idea of crafting characters and a universe for them sounds more like intimidating work than interesting fun, and at least with fic you know there's a good chance there are going to be a few people interested in your work or characters. Original work isn't like that.

 

I say I'd like to write another short story, but it doesn't seem like I'll be doing that anytime soon. Well, I think that's enough complaining for now. Bye lol